in response to MNurse66... Than you for even ecnoliging im still here on this earth, because to others I've already dissapeared.my heart hurts so much I've lost hope, every day is a struggle for me as I get weaker and weaker, im not looking toward to the holidays,I have nothing im sure at that time I will be living in my car with my children, I have never felt so empty inside, I don't understand why this. Is happening to me, I ask not to be in pain I ask for goodness to so3me form of comfort, just to see. My children smile and not have pain. And worry,give them a good life.thank u for ur respect and listening.